Captivated ;

Assholes.
Friends are made up of sugar, spice and assholes.

There you go.
I've lived 16 years far too long to have positive thoughts. Mind you, I'm very negative but the moment it involves my friends, I have nothing but good thoughts. I'm tired. I'm exhausted from swallowing all the insults. THERE. YOU SEE THAT? Funny how I still love those assholes. I'm trying so freakin' hard to hold on to my friendship. Cant you see how I don't let fights/rumours/dumb things among friends win ? Cant you see I've been  admitting defeat since forever ? Why so ? Because I imagine, no matter how 'not-close' we are, we are STILL friends.

Semua benda nak telan. Nak tunggu jadi racun , tunggu aku mati ke ? -.-
Bloody hell. I treasure friendship like hell and you're treating it like trash.
Shame shame.

& hello, I dont even let my emo side act violent to ppl around me tau.
hahahahhahahahhaha I've never felt so confused in my life.

Kau buat benda kecik, aku jadikan besar. Takkanlah kau tak tahu aku emo semacam ?
Kan bagus if I, myself be my own bestfriend ? Gah. OTHER friends, can you remind me, to not be so nice from now on ? thank you. OTHER friends, too, pls take care of me. I might appear like this , but I'm fragile as hell.

Thank you. I'm sorry. THANK YOU SO MUCH. I love my friends so don't you mess with my head, since you're a friend too.

Will whispered, “Your roommate is cute. I like him.”

Jack rolled his eyes again, “You’re impossible.”

“What? That flush on his face is too adorable.”

“Shut up,” Vincent declared. For some reason, hearing Will say Sam was cute didn’t quite settle right with him. It wasn’t like it was anything new though - Will tend to be attracted to anything on two legs. But … still.

“You okay?” Jack asked him.

Vincent frowned and nodded. “Why?”

“It’s just that you suddenly scowled.”

“I was just thinking.”

“About what?”

“Stuff.”

“What stuff?”

“Just stuff,” Vincent snapped, exasperated. “Care to stop bugging me?”

“Jeez . . .” Jack coughed. “PMS.”

There was a moment of silence and then a different voice spoke up.

“Man, I think I’m in love. Look! Your roommate’s playing with his hair. Aw, cutie. Yes, you may introduce me to him after class.”

“Will?”

“Yes?”

“I’m going to introduce you to my fist soon.”

“Nah, it’s not my type.”

“Then how about my foot?”

Give me a chance,
as nostalgia resounds. Read, if you care. Don't if you don't muehehe.

I feel blessed. Since two years ago, 3 robberies took place. You can see why my mom ain't so bling bling now. Some people, ey, I'm too tired from cursing them. Hmmph. Thankfully, I've lived a pretty life then despite the ups and downs, it has been well. I don't get emo for too long though, minus something like fighting with my mom or finding out my dad reads my blog were bad. Since two years ago, I spent my birthday at PD with my relatives. It was purely a coincidence but ah, I got a chance to ride a banana boat. 2007, quite a year for PMR wasn't it ? Then last year, coincidentally, again, I spent my birthday on an airplane, on my way home from London. If you must notice that I'm devoting my likings towards my birthdays is because I'm really bias about it. HAHA. So yeah, 10 December okay  ! :D Anyways, on to my jiwang mode. Last year was extremely lovely and my present was a Swatch wristwatch, not to mention superb gifts from friends & yeah, an outing,too. Up till now, the luck includes a new bed, a new webcam *yes babi oh yeah XD* & perhaps built in cupboards later. I want to strut my best as a token of gratitude for my parents. After the hardships they've been through, I want to give them straight As. We're not of the richest in the world, fyi. I feel the luxurious of my life lately. Alhamdulillah. I don't go and buy branded things or whatsoever and sure, even for outings, I have a budget, which is less than RM50 since that's the limit. It's hard to NOT spend a lot during outings. I mean, I notice that I prefer beautifying my own things for a long-term comfort rather than spending time on a short periods, be it on food, or other things. I'm just so thankful you know ? This undertone of appreciation just came to me.

So, thank you, mama and ayah.
p/s: By meaning 'not wasting my money', bras & cotton candy are not included, I need them !  -__-

To come soon: New bed, & built in cupboards.
To have tonight : A plastic-framed glasses equivalent to my food intake for 6 months . Mom had that glare of ' Kau rosakkan, kau mati' -_-
To do after midterms : Rock climbing & swimming sessions. Yela, I invited myself -.-" Shudup.
                                   (Saidah, I miss yr pancakes & yr toilet & the froggies T.T)
To do after SPM : kahwin! mak tk bg -.- haha

Astaghfirullahalazim.

Thank you, friends.